So I try to keep this blog free of the many hardships I have experienced this year. Lets face it. No one wants to read about them and I try not to dwell on them. I am going to make an exception for this entry.
I am waiting for my pediatrician's office to open to try to get Sierra seen hopefully soon. Starting at about 5:00 last night she began crying and wouldn't tell me what was wrong. This is normal for her and very frustrating. I tried for about 1 1/2 hours to figure out what the matter was and finally gave up and put her to bed. She continued to wake up every couple hours for the whole of the night crying and of course not telling me anything. When I woke up again this morning after probably getting 4 hours of sleep and NOT wanting to make another trip to the doctors I began to cry. I thought to myself, what more could I experience this year? I asked God why the trials wouldn't let up, why I couldn't have just one month of rest from sickness and fatigue. I then looked out my window and saw my cleaned car. Someone had come while I was in bed and wiped off the snow from my windows and shoveled my sidewalk. This is not the first time that I have had someone do this for me.
The thought came to me that one of the reasons that I have experienced hardship this year is to see the goodness in others and experience their love for me. I have never before in my life been the recipient of so much service, much of it without knowing who has done it. I have also learned how best to give service. I am one who tends to refuse people's offers of help unless it is absolutely necessary. But how wonderful it is when someone doesn't give me the choice and who serves me without me asking them. There have been some people who haven't asked me what they can do for me, in which case I would most of the time say nothing, but told me what they are going to do for me and then just done it. I have always appreciated it and I have asked God to bless each and every person who has helped me get through this year. I know that despite what I thought I could do alone a year ago, I could never in reality have gone through this year without the help from others. Thank you to whoever cleaned off my car this morning and to everyone who has been there for me this year.